Wednesday, February 6, 2008

what am i doing


what am i doing.......
is aiden crying for me, the mother that abandonded him...that put him in the hand of complete strangers
what if he just wants my arms around him and i am not there
does he just need to hear my heart, lay his little head on my chest to hear my voice to feel me breath......and i am not there
this is torture
i miss his face
i miss his breath
did i do the right thing?

1 comment:

Bill said...

Only time will tell. There are no real answers for he questions you ask. Anyone in there right mind would feel the way you do. I would be worried if you didn't. You are doing what you feel is right and that is all that matters. There is no shame in this situation. Either way your son will be loved. That is the most important thing. This is going to take a while to go away, and part of it never will. You need to be strong!!! I am here.