Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I am.....I dont know



My little man...

this is the newest

he is very alert....he loves being read to and he is sleeping all night

he must feel comfortable

right?

I hurt so much when i see hime

I missed out on getting to know this beautiful creature........

It hurts so much..its not getting better

FUCK

when....

when am i just gonna feel ok

when am going to stop crying

when is someone going to stop this pain in my heart

it hurts

1 comment:

Aunt Kath said...

Hey
This is just a suggestion, but maybe if you took a few weeks and not see pictures of him. It my give your mind a break while your hormones settle down and your body heals.
He is going to get more beautiful and change daily so I think that maybe waiting to see him in longer time spans might be beneficial. I know it tugs at me when I see him, I cant imagine what it does to you.
Hey,maybe they could let out his hands...
Im sure his aunts can cut finger nails.
LOVE U