im back

i am back
i know how everyone worries and well..
i hooked up the old dinosaur computer
lol
i am doing a lot better
or not
i dont know
i just know that i am not dwelling
that is the first step on my list
not too dwell
i am taking my time in the morning
breathe
when all else fails.........breathe
then i go about the day
i have come to terms with the fact that i am never going to get over these feelings
i have to learn how to cope with the hurt
wether it be blogs
talking
therapy
whatever
i just need to realize i have no control over this one
i cannot hide it
i cannot just put it aside