happy easter

here is the updated photos of aiden...

he enjoyed his easter..

i cannot wait to see a picture of him smiling!

mixed emotions today...

i only get emails when i ask for them

i asked them for easter pics of him...

...so no complaints i geuss...lol

he is beautiful and it is still heart wrenching to see him somewhere else

i am jealous

new feeling

i am jealous

i am angry

but i am soooo fucking jealous of them

that they get to see his first smile

his first easter

it hurts...but the pain is alot more dull now...

i get a lump in my throat everytime i see him

and i suppose that is going to happen forever

i dont talk about him anymore

i dont want to

just here

thats it

i dont want to talk about him