Wednesday, October 15, 2008

eight months ago.......

here he is
eight months old
as much as i dont want to think about him anymore
my dreams are filled with him
i have been waking up with that lump in my throat lately
and having to hold back
i dont want to cry anymore
i dont
look at his little feet
i want to see him
to touch him
but the thought of the pain of having to leave him again is so overwhelming, that i am scared i am never going to want to see him...
i loved him enough to give him this wonderful life he has
at least that's what i keep telling myself
oh well
sigh..........................

1 comment:

supahmommy- somethin's wrong with that girl said...

He's obviously not allergic to CATS LIKE YOU!! lmao
too cute.

I'd love to see him too.
d