Thursday, February 2, 2012
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
cant sleep
trying to explain feelings like these to someone is bullshit
two years now and the second i fall asleep..
i feel it
i hear the door shut
hear the wheels of the babys hopspital bed wheel away
wanting to run and grab him
feeling his breath on my face...
my tears..
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want to just run...run away from this day
hey everyone
its ground hog day
and aidens day
the lump returns..
the hurt in my heart is here
i long to hear him laugh and still makes my whole body ache that i am not the one holding him when he cries..
happy birthday aiden
aiden william
lucas aiden
you are missed.......................
still
two years now and the second i fall asleep..
i feel it
i hear the door shut
hear the wheels of the babys hopspital bed wheel away
wanting to run and grab him
feeling his breath on my face...
my tears..
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want to just run...run away from this day
hey everyone
its ground hog day
and aidens day
the lump returns..
the hurt in my heart is here
i long to hear him laugh and still makes my whole body ache that i am not the one holding him when he cries..
happy birthday aiden
aiden william
lucas aiden
you are missed.......................
still
Monday, February 1, 2010
still
still ...
still today i am bothered
by memories of the hospital
still ..
today the feelings flood back
it still hurts
but happy birthday aiden william
i love you
still today i am bothered
by memories of the hospital
still ..
today the feelings flood back
it still hurts
but happy birthday aiden william
i love you
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
feb 2
lucas is turning 2
feb second
the dads had mentioned me coming for his party
i am fine with it..until it gets closer
then i tense up
i am sure the hellos and goodbyes will get easier with time
but saying goodbye is soooooooooo hard
he is a cutie tho..his laugh
i hear it when i look at his photos
i miss him
feb second
the dads had mentioned me coming for his party
i am fine with it..until it gets closer
then i tense up
i am sure the hellos and goodbyes will get easier with time
but saying goodbye is soooooooooo hard
he is a cutie tho..his laugh
i hear it when i look at his photos
i miss him
Sunday, December 27, 2009
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